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You stop for a brief moment.
Yesterday’s urge, petered-out, jaded
Returns.
You’ve done everything—
Showered, smiled, wiped
The newest filament of dust off your reading table.
Your theories are as sound as ever.
They only shudder at the tiniest tremor in your groin.
So you plug in your earphones
You pretend to wish people well
And effortlessly you regress to your perfect world
With a faceless shin, a nameless mouth, a shapeless tongue

Again.

Somnolence

The first time I refused
You should have pressed on.
Maybe I fell asleep then, and woke up
To the sound of blood
Flowing from consciousness
To consciousness.

But guess what?
I have refused again
This time I am wide awake
And there is just
The mirror and me.

B

On a night like this
She came on a holiday
From her land of frozen shoes.
“My little brown B” she called me.
In the far south
Where babies go to sleep in summer
And wake up as men
With toe marks on their chest,
I promised to build her a hive.
......


I knew you were born without a toe mark
The first time I licked your honey skin.
Words froze in the south
The day I stopped making shoes.
Though babies still hibernate here
They do not grow up any more.
I remember your promise
And wish you were born in a hive
I could have saved you then
From dying of a human heart.

Entr’ackte

I cross vistas
Hurriedly... butter anxious to melt.
A waiting tree scares me.
Maybe you waited
Somewhere... and I left.
Yes, maybe I was
An empty saucepan
And you really were tired
Of frozen foods.

Newer yous shag.
Some decrepit, some
Fresh from the oven.
Yes, that’s one gift
You did leave me.

Even if my groins leak
Ill still be running
With my cake
Across new vistas
Remembering you
Each time I see
A waiting tree.

Burial

Through torn strands I whisper
To battling shadows.
In their horses’ breath they utter
My name
Calling me back
To the onset of dreams.

I recall
The tunnel and its warmth
Gushing forth
In gulps of sinewy agony.
I was embalmed within its walls.

Thoughts are avalanches
Sealing tunnels.
Only shadows speak
My fossils remain...

I invoked you in all your plurality
When you volunteered your sighs
And I forsook my memories
On the frozen myth of your religion.

Believe me, your never were gone
Even in those briefest moments
When fulfilment threatened to overpower,
Or what I perceived as happiness
Shadowed your caresses.

Yes, Ive loved you
With all my virgin naivete
With all my lost tenacity.
And now at last
I know your touch.

An Other Life

Death doesn't love me anymore,
But once it did
When I stood at the threshold of the bolted door.
Were the groans of toads louder than Id imagined?
Or was my soul too full of dead flies?

Death will love me again,
Again soon.
When bleeding stories have drenched themselves
In the swamp's waters,
Full of toads' groans.

Ill unlock the door at last
And be greeted by dead flies.